About me
Well, that is what a blog is about essentially, right? The person who writes it? Usually I prefer not to subconsciously do that, not right out say "Look at me". Today something stirred and I wanted to write about it before I forgot, because I do that a lot. I am a very non emotional person. Usually when it stirs up is when hormones are high, I hate that part about being a woman. Not knowing if the emotions are real or egged on by hormones and such. I do not cry, unless I really can't help it. For me, it is being weak, I am not weak. I have been told that my whole life, that I am strong, and I couldn't be a simpering weak type of female. I mean no ill will by those words, but to me a woman who has to depend on others most of the time is not attractive to me. And this has caused me harm, and to harm others around me. If you ever tell me I am pretty, I will probably roll my eyes at you and wonder what you want. I don't think I meant to go into all that, but there you go.
Today, as I was scanning blogs, Kim Johnson, and I found something, and my heart stirred. I still have no idea why. This wonderful cactus flower this gentleman has grown is what did it. Plants in general set off a desire in me that I can only imagine is what happens to my husband when he thinks about our community. About where it can go and the potential of the people on their journey to God, and the desire to protect them on that journey. What is sad to me is that I usually don't feel like that toward people, not very often any way. Oh, I love people and want to help them as much as I can. I feel that all the time, but "playing in the dirt" is like euphoria to me. I think I might be sick in the head. It could be, I guess, the way I was raised, and my inability to change that yet. At least I am aware of it. That is something right? Being aware and wanting to change.
This did not turn out anything like I had wanted it to. Maybe this has been my morning therapy session, what I need to focus on and start changing.
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