lizardblog ( the blog of liz creech

May 18, 2005
Wonder vs. Worry

I actually wrote this yesterday and saved to post today:

When I say wonder, I mean question. I wonder if this new house thing is actually going to go through. I think the guy behind us sold his house, and I am jealous. They put their for sale by owner sign up about a week and a half ago, maybe two weeks and now the sign is gone. Their closing date for their new house (they are doing the same thing as us and will be "behind" us again) isn't until January and they don't "have" to sell their house until August. What can I do to make my house more desirable with out going crazy again? How come God let their house sell first?(that is just stupid there, but because of old mind sets, it does pop in my head)

I could stay in this house, I could. It might actually be better if we ended up not moving, money wise any how. There really wouldn't be room for the hospitality we want to extend, but we could make do. I would have to encourage my husband to get rid of some of the stuff he is so sentimentally attached to. We would have to be adamant about keeping it clean and organized. But could we stay here? Sure, and it would be fine. I sure want that new house. It will be nice to have some more room. And a fresh clean start on getting and staying organized. I still wonder where I will put all the stuff we have stored if we end up staying in this house. But maybe we could go from here to the rural community in 3 years instead of waiting 5-6 years if we get the new house. You know, just lots of questions as to why, why not, or when and how.

I think it takes time to build character, and all those "difficult" things you go through make you better. But sometimes, I don't want the character building, I just want it to be easy for once. Now, all that is relative because I have it good, no I have it great. And in all reality I sound like a spoiled brat saying "I want it now". I think ultimately if we don't sell this house, I will just be embarrassed. Because I have been talking about this stupid process for so long and invested so much time, energy and money. Yeah, embarrassed. And I would kind of feel like God doesn't "love" me as much as someone else, but that is my own mental illness. I think a lot of us experience that, because of the sick way we have been taught about God.

I DO believe that it will all work out for the best. Naturally or supernaturally it doesn't matter, I just need to learn to be happy with what I have. Just hurry up God, Ok?

I wasn't feeling all so great mentally yesterday and didn't get much done which makes me feel even worse. There is still stuff to do around here, little things that can be hidden but that I wouldn't/couldn't leave undone if/when we sell this house. My excuse for not getting them done yet is lack of time and money. We have to pay both car registrations this month and that HURTS! And running ads in the paper are not cheap. And I believe we might have to expand to other local papers like Georgetown, Nicholasville and Versailles. I don't know. Do you all have any ideas about how better to market our house? Without a realtor? I have done all the things the professionals in all the books I have read have said to do. Maybe I need to get a professional stager/decorator to come in and help me arrange things differently. Wonder how much that will cost? I am so weary of talking and dealing with the house issue. And this post is much too long. I will leave it at that.

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Here are some books I suggests if you are looking to homeschool or just for information. I gleaned a lot from them. Our church gets credit if you buy through these links.

In their Own Way
by Thomas Armstrong

Seven Times Smarter
by Laurel Schmidt

How to Talk So Kids Can Learn
by Adele Faber and Elaine Mazlish

Teen Proofing
by John Rosemond