lizardblog ( the blog of liz creech

September 28, 2004
What is that?

There is this "thing" that I get in the pit of my stomach sometimes. It is a good thing. When I think about certain things, like owning a horse and being able to ride it when ever I want. Or watching clowns at the circus. The thought of owning a successful small farm, or when my children do something well. Just the mere thought of going to Ireland. What is that? I call it excitement to some degree. There are a lot of small things that make me feel that way. It would take awhile to thing of and list them all, so I won't. I have been feeling that today. I was reading Debi's blog and thinking of Ireland. I know a lot of times it is a misconceived notion of things, putting things in a light that aren't so. Anyway, I just wanted to say that.

I am amazed at how selfish and self centered I am. I am not harping on myself, it is just something that I have noticed. It is unusual to see humans thinking of others first. To actually have the thought that others have just as much right to be and do as I have. That is what I am working on now. To think of others as just as valid as I am. To improve my attitude toward others. I think it interesting that when a conversation is taking place, I want to jump in there with "well, I ......". To make it pertain to me, me, me. I want to change that some. Not that I don't ever want to be concerned with my wants and needs, I would just like to be more aware of others and their wants and needs.

O.K. speaking of me (HA!) I have been thinking about some more stuff. It is like some wisdom is being leaked into my head. I have been selfishly thinking of not working as a server any more. It is hard work and there is a lot of stress involved. I know that sounds kind of funny for food service, but it is real none the less. So, I am figuring that come April when we get some things paid off then I can work and put all my money toward the cars and have them paid off in a year and a half. Pretty good, huh? That is exciting to me. And that will free up 600 more dollars a month. So, come August of 2006 we could have paid off cars. That just sounds wonderful.

Well, the day calls.

posted by Liz at 9:20 AM - permalink - -

September 21, 2004
Just Regular?

Sorry it has been so long. I don't want to take the time it takes to keep this thing updated. I need to keep up with school for the kids and regular life just keeps getting in the way. Goofy.

We have been just regular lately. God has been leaking some clues to me. I just wonder why it takes me so long to catch on to things? I am in the process of trying to teach Katey about budgeting, because I never had anyone explain that to me - didn't understand the process until I was in way over my head. So, I am trying to spare my kids the angst of not really knowing how to deal with money.

Alan had some good comments on his Sept. 20 post. One stood out from Tim Colson. I keep waiting for the brick to fall. We bought a new to us Honda Odessey last year and I keep waiting for it to tear up. God has brought us to a point in our financial life that things are good. We pay all the bills, are working our way out of credit card debt and bought our first ever cars that WE actually pay for. I haven't managed to save up a small nest egg though. I have a child 3 years away from college and I have no way of paying for it. It can be very overwhelming. Any way, God has been showing me things and giving me wisdom about stuff. I just hope I can put it into proper practice. I said that to say it is pitful to be in a good spot and with what ever stupid mentality it is I keep waiting for something "bad" to happen and take us right back down again. I am sure a lot of us are like that, Why is that?

So, my dryer quit about a month ago. It stopped heating. I had just put in a new heating element, fixed the front of the dryer and so on. Over 100$. I got tired of fixing it. My brother-in-law drives a truck for GE and sometimes finds new free dryers, I don't know how, but he does. So, I called and asked if he had any setting around, and he did. An older one but it ran and dried clothes. So, I went and got it and threw the old one away. I was in business until last week when it decided not to start. So, now I am without a dryer once again. Alan washed a bunch of clothes on Sunday and I went to the laundry mat early on Monday to dry them. I will just have to do that until I can afford another dryer. My brother-in-law is hunting one for me, but it might take a while. My Mother-in-law said they would help us get another one if something happened to this one, but she is visiting her brother in Colorado until the 27th or so. And I am greedy. I want one of those huge dryers they make now. The 7cu. ft one. Or whatever size it is. With all these people in the house, I need it. I went to the Sears outlet store and found some for around 525$ they normally can cost up to 1100$ for a new one. That is a crap ton of money, especailly when you don't even have the money to buy a 200$ cheap piece of crap one. I reckon it will all come out in the "wash" - HA!!

Well, I have to get to the day. School, maybe riding lessons, and then our community gathering tonight. May you all learn, quickly, the lessons God has for you.

posted by Liz at 10:40 AM - permalink - -

September 03, 2004
Mad hurt and a little angry

I am getting ready to leave and take Katey to get her foot x-rayed. Hopefully she will get weened into a rocker boot and will be able to actually walk and go up stairs to her classes.

Sometimes you get ambushed by things. Sometimes you get hurt, and sometimes you get so mad that you want to get up in somebody's face and yell at them. "WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO PROJECT THAT ONTO ME?!?!!" Had that happen. Now I have to be a civilized human and go talk to the people and get it straightened out. It bothers me when people assume I am an asshole, jerk, inconsiderate, thoughtless turd. I guess that is what happens when you have people you associate with who really don't know you. So I will go deal with other peoples politics and ranting and assumations and make them like me again. I might find it hard not to have a bit of a grudge for a bit. You all pray for me in that aspect - that I can forgive.

posted by Liz at 8:10 AM - permalink - -

spiritual

> vine & branches
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blogs

> Garden Escapades
> Trish Hiduk
> Maryann
> Alan Creech
> The Vine
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Homeschool

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> saxon math and phonics

general interest

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> lisa welchel
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gardening

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books i like

Here are some books I suggests if you are looking to homeschool or just for information. I gleaned a lot from them. Our church gets credit if you buy through these links.

In their Own Way
by Thomas Armstrong

Seven Times Smarter
by Laurel Schmidt

How to Talk So Kids Can Learn
by Adele Faber and Elaine Mazlish

Teen Proofing
by John Rosemond