August 30, 2009> 9:00 PM
Jesus my everything > well, not really
Tonight at Mass, we sang a worship song called Jesus My Everything (by Matt Maher). It's a good song. I like it. It was our first Communion song. As we were singing, I found myself unable to sing part of it. I know the point in the song - not saying anything against it, but tonight, for me, it was very "bright" to me, that no, Jesus is not my everything - and I just couldn't sing it, not that part.
I'll share part of the song here, and as I read it now, the rest of it, it kind of comes together... Oh, and let me say this: I am NOT trying to start any kind of debate about music styles in church, Catholic or otherwise and will NOT entertain any comments in that vein.
Cause you are my everything, you are the song I sing; I'd do anything for you. Teach me how to pray, to live a life of grace, I'll go anywhere with you; Jesus, be my everything.
Lord I get so tired of the struggle within. I settle in complacency and I'm weighed down in my sin So lead me past emotion cause they change with the wind. I want to be a true disciple to daily choose your hand.
Like I said, it's good in the whole and I'm not even criticizing the song at all. I'm just talking about me and what I found that I couldn't say tonight - that He is my everything - the rest, yes, all of it. But He is still not the total focus of my vision. He does not have my full attention. And it's not like I can turn a switch in here and go to "total Jesus focus mode." A little yes here and a little yes there - it's a process - a long one. Help me, help us, Lord, to say yes to You and not turn our eyes away.
August 30, 2009
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