January 20, 2009> 5:41 PM
unwearied
The Antiphon for the Psalm of Monday night's Compline (Night Prayer) is as follows...
O Lord, our God, unwearied is your love for us.
Each time Monday rolls around and I'm praying this before I got to sleep at night, I linger at the Antiphon for just a bit, and sometimes repeat it. Unwearied, it says. God is not worn out by us. He is not impatient with us. The love of our Lord for us does not grow tired - ever. That's hard for us to comprehend. Some of us just flat cannot comprehend it. I believe it. I "see" it - not fully, of course, but I do, and my heart is grateful.
I am a pretty decent Father, I think. But, I get weary of it sometimes. It wears me out sometimes.
I'm a pretty good husband most of the time. I love my wife very much. But my love for her is sometimes weary, sometimes it's just not what it could be.
As a friend, I don't know what I am. That's hard for me to say. I feel out of practice lately. But I know I am not unwearied by it, by people, even those I love dearly - maybe tired of being what I'm supposed to be to them.
It's probably good that I realize that, though - that I am not yet perfect - that I am still a failure sometimes - that I am not what I was created to be yet. If I were to have the attitude that I had nowhere to go, then perhaps I would stop traveling. I have a long way to go and therefore, I am very thankful that He who deals with me has an unwearied love for me.
January 20, 2009
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