March 27, 2008> 12:33 PM
easter time > et cetera
Well, Easter is here, still with us, finally. Was Lent 80 days this time or what? Lots of Alleluias and all that. Once again, I really have yet to feel an Alleluia in my soul. Perhaps I don't have to, but it would be nice.
Rainy, rainy day in Kentucky today, as Bryan has already pointed out. We have some thunderstorms moving through. I love them too. I remember sitting on our porch when I was a kid, with my Dad, watching and listening to them. I want a porch or deck now that I can do that on. Soon, perhaps. I may invite some of you to the "deck raising."
I love the rain actually. I know, generally speaking, it's considered "dreary" and "depressing," but I like a good rain. Look, I don't have to have rain to be depressed. I'm good at that in all weather - seriously people. I love the sound of it. I love the smell of it - have you not smelled rain? You just want to breathe your lungs full of it.
Once upon a time I remember telling friends of mine when they asked me, "Why don't you go back to the Catholic Church?" - I remember telling them, "I don't think I could do it - just too much to wade through." That was my standard answer. Well, I'm sort of coming face to face with that - have been for the last year nearly. I have to tell you, I'm finding that I was right to a certain extent. There is certainly some shit to wade through. It could be simpler. Some days I wonder what I have undertaken, especially for my family. It could be a LOT simpler for those who are already committed Christians from other traditions. And yes, I know I've done my share of whining about all this, and I'm probably not finished. For some reason, I thought I'd be done with the process by now. I thought we'd all be done with it by now. I thought amiss. My courage is no longer fading. I fear it is gone. Yeah - not 'gonna be on Journey Home any time soon I don't reckon - ha.
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