November 07, 2007> 11:02 PM
shocking things about me
Well, maybe they're not "shocking" but that title is more interesting. Maybe they're just "interesting" - maybe not even that. Or maybe I could say maybe a couple more times... maybe.
I continue on the quasi narcissistic slant of self-focus. Some may see it that way I suppose. It's probably not technically narcissism but whatever - it's all about MEEE!! ha! Of course, I'm pretty sure my readers (aka, YOU) will see a bit of yourself in some of these things, or will at least find them generally interesting even if they weren't about, you know, ME.
Almost always, in the line on my way to receive the Eucharist, I pray in tongues under my breath until I say Amen to Him.
Probably, my favorite toy growing up was (were) Hot Wheels! Every time we went to the store, I had to find a new one. I still have a lot of them. My Mom has some she keeps to put in the village she puts under their Christmas tree every year (a tradition I started as a kid). And I didn't say Matchbox either (wimpy) - that's Hot Wheels people. And here are the ones I had - a collector's site.
Apparently neither Liz nor McKenzie has anything to add - any interesting or shocking things about me. Hmmmm.
I am a big man. I weigh... a lot. I am tall - 6' 2" tall. People ask me if I played football kind of big. If you've never seen me in person, you might be surprised what a big dude I am. I might scare you or something, seriously. I wouldn't hit you though, -- well, -- no, I wouldn't.
Now, here's shocking for you: I've actually thought about pursuing some kind of graduate theology degree - maybe focusing on spirituality, the Christian mystical tradition and monasticism. What the hell!? Why? I'm not really sure. I have a mind for it I suppose. I'm interested in such things, and not only for purely academic, but for practical reasons. BUT - my questions for myself are these: Why do I need such a degree? What good would it do me or anyone else? I'm not sure how it would add to what's already in me. How practical is it for me, right now, really? Short answer - not very, at all. It would further turn my life and the life of my family upside-down. I highly doubt it would be worth it. Not to mention the doozy of - Who's going to freakin' pay for it? Not me. Impossible. Moot point then it seems. Perhaps I am somehow supposed to be some kind of example of how one can think and write theologically, who can do theology, perhaps more a kind of mystical theology, a hands-on theology, without having the currently, generally accepted form of theological education. Maybe (I said it again didn't I) - maybe I can somehow help in the spiritual formation of some people, help them find a real, live spiritual life - one that facilitates their transformation into the image of Christ, without being any kind of officially ordained Priest or Deacon or what is generally accepted as a consecrated Religious Brother. Maybe that's why every time I've ever moved in the direction of such a degree program, I've felt a very obvious halt or check inside myself. And yet, I keep on being moved into places of doing these things, thinking about and writing about and talking to people about these things. It's certainly not all ME. If it were, I would have chosen some other paths I think.
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