I like this picture. I took it at the pond where I fish sometimes. I was trying to find something that reflected how I'm feeling right now. There's certainly reflection there of a kind I suppose. But it's more the distant, a bit alone, somewhat isolated, in-between worlds feeling I mean. I think it does a sufficient job.
I certainly wish all this internal turmoil would take a permanent vacation. And it's really a very hard thing for me to explain. You can give me encouraging words if you want. You may not attempt to kick my ass and tell me to "just get over it" or something akin to that. Now if you know me really well and you know enough to talk to me like that, that's another story - we may be able to sit and personally hash some things out.
I honestly have never had a period like this where I can't quite get rid of that heavy heavy feeling of "weight" in my chest. Well, not in a long time. I think that may be part of the problem. Maybe I've had it too easy for a while. Boy, that's ironic. Easy? What the hell? OK, I know all this is very cryptic. I just needed to "say something" - I process like that. I'm actually doing some better - just not quite "there" yet - whatever "there" is. Peace to you. Peace to me.
"Then, if we cannot as yet think alike in all things, at least we may love alike. Herein we cannot possibly do amiss." John Wesley
"Keep your eyes on the crucifix, for Jesus without the cross
is a man without a mission, and the cross without Jesus
is a burden without a reliever." Fulton J. Sheen
"...I am deeply convinced that the Christian leader of the future is called to be
completely irrelevant and to stand in this world with nothing to offer but his or her own vulnerable self." Henri Nouwen
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