July 23, 2005> 10:42 AM
convinced
Had a great lunch with Aaron, Will and Pete yesterday. Good to get to know Will more. We had a very good time of mostly talking with some eating thrown in there. Pretty much two hours and then continued with Pete, Aaron and I in my office for another hour. I think we may have gotten the entire thing totally worked out. The white paper will be published soon. I told Aaron he should've digitally recorded us but he's still on his electronics fast.
I'm not going to go off for a long time on anything in this post because I'm not sure I'm capable of doing that yet this morning. We talked about a good many things, some of it fairly indepthly, and it all caused me to be more convinced than ever that we simply haven't, generally, given ourselves over to what really needs to happen nearly enough. I'm not trying to be intentionally vague, I'm just not into sitting here and writing for an hour today. I'm convinced that, first of all, we don't really understand what needs to happen and more than that, we don't understand why it needs to happen. This is why we see so many surface changes with no substance behind them. Someone put it like this, "rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic." Yeah. That.
We're not taking the time and energy to think deeply enough about it. We get excited about something new and boom! We go. We get tired of something old and boom! We're out. We see the culture changing around us the boom! We change too. None of those things, in themselves, is really a deep enough consideration of what and why things need to change. Some of us even get tired of hearing others yap about things needing to change and what they are and how that works and they turn it off and slip back to default. They think we're being knee-jerk reactionaries. They think we're just angry or hurt or something else. We may have actually thought about it for more than 15 minutes. We may actually be living out of a formed (and forming) theology, trying to be integritous and consistent. Just maybe.
OK, I'm getting sort of mad now so I'll probably need to stop. Stop writing for the moment that is. Think more deeply. Pray more deeply. Listen more intently. Don't give up and slide back down the hill. Please. Grace and Peace be with us.